Wishing Good health and Happy always

Last weekend, i'm given a chance and responsibility to take care for my youngest cousin sister. It is a very good chance and good experiences to me...and during the time, i think of many things...especially those funny and hardness during childhood period...And those are my sweeties memories...[so happy every second spending with her...tam her to oink, play with her, bring her outing and so on...everything are jsut nice and best...]

Start from the moment u r winning the swimming competation, The God start arranging a timetable, schedules, duty and responsibilies to u. Then ur upcoming parent start to worries all about u de...Planning for ur future...Praying so hard.

Hard to be parent. Do u realize de?
*Really hard to express my feeling here...and my ideas here...donno y...but it seem so common sense de...jsut sometime u not realize de...let think about it...

Gigi Leong:...Maybe the poornees and bring them another type of happiness...

The same old circumstance...

Y the same old circumstance come to me again...Ya, it all come over again...i don know how long i can stand for it again and again...don know how long i need to experience again le?Do someone can tell me the answer?

Frankly, this situation will demotivate me, will cause me not believe to my own sense anymore...seem that all my sense go wrong de...no more confidence at that such area anymore...it just seem that hand burn during the economic crisis, then dare not to play stock for the future anymore...Do my statement right?Do u all agree with me?

I'm not a luck person...Maybe this is my life...i have to accept with it, need some idea to deal with it...have to get more and more excuses to myself to think in positive side...but it always seem not work...

I keep try hard to build the relationship between...and i'm confidence with it...i can mantain it well...But, it jsut seem that the relationship are just weak, out of my expectation...

U mind how others think about it; u mind others' words; u mind for others' view...OMG, now is 21st century...wat a old stone age minded?come on...

Thanks for all frens who give me confidence, thanks for u all keep telling me...U had high chances for that...U can do it...but this still end up with EMPTY...with ZERO...
*the same method used cannot apply to my case...coz my one is special case...i'm a bad luck man...May it like Fay said, "Just no luck this time"...Maybe...

I'm sorry to the person...
I'm sorry that i'm not good enough...
I'm sorry for my useless,
I'm sorry fail to give u confidence...
I'm sorry to bring u troubles...
I'm sorry made u have a bad mood...
I'm sorry made u not sleep well...
I'm sorry wasting ur time and energy...
I'm sorry, coz me, made ur name link with me...

Finally,
I hope,
U have good health all the time...
Can take meals on time...
Don "Mang Zhang" when facing problem...
Calm down...
No more Sotong to u...
Able to concerntrate on ur works...
Smile always...
Happy all the time...
Out from ur bad experience...stand up and walk forward...
Don live in the previous...

and i hope myself can recover as well so soon...ya...so soon...
NamoAmitabha...