Should i tell him?

I don know should i tell my daddy my actual feeling insie my heart.
My daddy keep on asking me "Are u Okay?"...Maybe he know wat happend to me...but...should i tell him wat i thinknig inside my heart?I don know should i tell him?

I feel that, tell him also useless...coz the problem is hard to solve...Both also is his son...wat should he did?

previously my bro have mention that my daddy only care me...so...wat i can do?

My daddy keep on asking...hmm...don know wat can i do?

Damn down period

Hmm...i wishing everything passed can forgot...i hope to have one kind of medicine can let me forgot those unhappy memory...just leave those happy memory at my mind...but i know...impossible...

Don know y...when i saw my daddy...i sunddenly cry...
When i saw him, i lose control on myself...i cannot bring up my mood anymore...
Last time, i will share anything and any happend with my daddy...but, i don know this happend y i can't share with...maybe when i tell him, it will make him more suffer than me...finally, i decided to keep it.

I slept at my room after my school time, i have no go out...just sleep...sleep for long period...make my brain stupid and moron...cannot function at all...(oversleep)...
I haven try b4, i can sleep for long period as i did this few days...actually i got a lot of coursework and home work to do...but i really cannot concentrate it...

Now i only feel that i only can express my feeling, my hate, my unhappy mood here...no other choose for me...i scare i will fall sick soon...

KIAN - WAKE UP...Cheer....all the best...

Thanks...Thanks...

Really...i really feel touching right now...i get a lot of my buddies caring me...my buddies give a lot of comment to me...helping me...those also helpful comment...i will remember forever in my heart...i knew wat should i do rite now...

Last night, i just find no way to releast my feeling...si the only way i found is in BLOG here...hmm...

I getting better right now...all my buddies...10q u all...i can be more stronger ge...i can handle ge...i can chnaged ge...

I really feeling another family here...i love u all...THANKS...

My Heart Bleeding

Today is the most sadness day in my life...my heart feel like have a knife cuting my heart...bleeding...really pain...pain...really pain...

Today i have a fight with my bro...i really know how my bro thinking who am i?i really understood...why we cannnot peaceful live in a same house?I really jealous that other family, got a really good bro and sis can caring me...but...today...i really know wat happen...

"somebody well in talk, somebody can sound well...but he actually have no...he just act in front..."

when i hear this...i cannot control myself...raelly cannot control...i keep on telling myself...cannot cry...i shoudl control it...but really i cannot...i cry non-stop at my room...
Til now, i only know that...i acting all the time ,especiall i'm a good actor at home...and made my bro suffer enough...made my parents not caring my bro at all...(actually have no...i know my parents had no did that...them really caring us...especially...my daddy so caring my bro,my sis and i...)
When i hear he mean...He just a good talker and actor...who nkow my heart really pain...He thinking i;m a 25-boy...keep on talking bad word behind him...but i really have no...

I don know how to solve this kind of Q...this kind of problem...Everyone think that i really good relationship with him...but...actual is not...i try my best to treat him as well as possible...but...finally, i get the answer is...ACTOR...

I really don know how rite now?i feel lost...really lost...

R u good + satisfy enaf?

Wednesday night, 2200, Channel 30, Astro...

Hmm...meaningful TV program.This TV program is talking a topic which about the person who down's syndrome @ mentally Retarded @ abnormal children.

Touching night, i feel that i really living in a very good environment, healthy, normal human being. I should thanks The God to given me a warming family, my good buddies, and a lot of frens....the most is, i have a healthy and normal body. Thanks God.

The TV program shown is a Hong Kong, China country to have a society to host a activity for the family which to have child down's syndrome and for the person who abnormal mentally grow. The chairperson who own a ship, and he bring along with some volunteer and charity members to host an activity with the purpose as REBUIT CONFIDENCE of those child who down's syndrome. Besides that, major the volunteer are secondary school student, this is a golden chance to let them learn and gain more knowledge and given a chance work with person who mentally retarded.
#For my opinion, it is a very good chance for them, now days students only study and study the books only, haven go out b4, less extral knowledge...don know how to care people...respect...and a lot of bad habit.

The hoster create a lot of activity such as protect urself in case of fire when u r on a ship. How do u walk, escape from a fire venue? Build up the confidence for those person who down's syndrome, so that they won thinking them are a group who r useless for the country. All the activity are under control by family members, volunteeres and lectureres.

In additional, it also provide a chance that the family member who spend a lot of time to care their child who mentally retarded. They can enjoying all the activity which hosted by the Charity society.
Wau...really meaningful activity GaMbAt3H...I wishing more of the Charity society can host more much this kind of activity to the person who abnormal, unlucky, and disease human. Please more caring them, Them is not a BURDEN for our country.

# God Bless U...

Hulu Yam one day trip

Wau...so fast till the second day of Hari Raya...tomolo need to start my class again.TIRED

Today, we are total 8 persons to have a dairy trip to Hulu Yam, Selangor.

First at all, Carmen and YY prepared those food such as Dan Ji and Hotdog.
We start to go there around 0900. Hulu Yam got totally 3 stop points or rest points to play water or camping. We decided to stop at point 2, P2.We all take our the food which prepared by Carmen and YY...so fast, major of the foods are finished by us...wakaka...Yummie...

The most funny part is, we all walk to opposite of the river by a 'Diao Qiao' @ Bridge which hanging by column. Wau...swing left and right...enjoyable...but YY so scare le...

After that, we continue to Hulu Yam Baru to have our lunch, Loh Mee...the most famor mee in Hulu Yam...hmm...actually, quite ok only la...not so perfect lo...but major people quite like to eat Loh Mee here...don know y?whatever la...

Then, i received a call from home, and i get the news by my mom is, My grandma get ill...then after to have lunch, i invite all my buddies to go Rawang, so that i can take a chance to visit my gradma.Hmm...lucky, my grandma is ok...cause she still can scold the Doc useless...wakaka...

Then on the way back to Kepong, we pass by Temple Park,then YY wishing to have there have a look, then we all stop there for a while...unlucky is...rainning le...we all take the umbrella and walking in the rain...so romantic...but i'm not walk with my gal gal...so cham...coz i have no gal lo...i just walking with my god-sis...better than no la...wakaka...she quite pretty oh...but just so FIRE @ hot temple...(this kind of gal...hai...)

Around 1400, we reach KK's house. i stay there a while, then back home to take rest...

Walking way:
Kepong-->Hulu Yam(Hot dag+Dan Ji)-->Hulu Yam Baru(Loh Mee)-->Serendah-->Rawang(Yau Yau Bing)-->Kepong

Holiday in home

Hmm...today wake up early...after to have breakfast with my parents and uncles...then back home to start my work - Renovation my home...my mom working place...Kitchen.

Wau...my parents leard me and call me do this and that...cut this and that...then after that...we need to kill those White Ant...do a lot of prevention to anti-white Ant come to attack my home furniture...ohoh...bc day...bc holiday...

This kind of work need a lot time to do it...we start around 1000 and end at 1600 le...tired oh...

Don wan arite too much...tired like hell...
Happy Family day

Meaningful day

Hmm...normally, friday is a most bc day for me...coz i need to go for class at very early morning...9am to have class, usually 7am should wake up to prepare all the reference books & notes to bring for the class...PLUS thursday night do those homework too so late...
Then wake up early in friday morning is very hard and suffer for me...cham...

But...this friday really is a meaningful day...i go for Blood Donation.
Last 3 months i have miss a chance to donate my blood, because i sick for the week...then after take the medicine, the nurse not allow me to donate...so sad...
After 3 months,haha...the camping of blood donation come again.

First i walk in the College Hall, a lot of the helper come to serve and give those form to fill in...after filled those form,then go body check...OMG...i got high blood pressure le...but still in the undercontrol level, then finally the doctor still let me go in and donate my blood...hehe...(i feel a bit tension le)

Wau...i saw a lot of my coursemate come donate blood le...funny...normally none of my classmate will saw in the college hall...but this is my first time to saw a lot of my coursemate...really happy...and my fren,Ron Wong...his first time to donate le...King ting, yik da, Peng Foo,siong woon,etc...and my buddy...Kent lo...hehe

After blood donation, we are late around an hour for the class...but is ok ge la...normally i hate to go for the class also...lazy...

Whole day feeling well...coz i done a very nice job...
Happy...

Welcome all people come to donate UR blood to help other people who need our blood...